Running around aimlessly on the opposite direction from where they arrived from, the pounding of his heart is all that Zelos can hear, the cold sensation of the rain already numb as he becomes soaked from head to toe. This is the stupidest thing he's ever done, yet Zelos doesn't stop; he just keeps running, running, running, running until he hits the edge of the town where civilization meets wilderness again.
It's dark, but even from here Zelos can still see that there's a forest in the distance, some blob of darkness further away after the small plain at his feet. He breathes harshly and shallowly, frozen in place. Blinks, croaks something out, steps back. Starts trembling, eyes glued to the murky foliage through the thick rain.
'Just what do you think you're trying to achieve?'
The pouring rain envelops him whole, harsh like white noise, drowning out the rest of the world in a numb emptiness as he stares. He steps back again, looks to his left, over his shoulder. Why did he even run? What the hell was the purpose of coming all the way here? For all he's scared of Lloyd abandoning him, he sure just did exactly that to the ex-knight. Stupid... Stupid, so stupid. He should go back and apologize before he makes everything worse.
This wasn't worth it.
He steps back again, then twits on his heel and takes about six steps back to their inn before he abruptly stops. No, wait--he can't go back. Lloyd hates him, doesn't he? Why would he accept an apology from someone he despises? In that case, running away was the right choice. Yes. Growling under his breath, Zelos twists on his heel again, takes three steps towards the forest, and as lightning hits in the distance once again he suddenly stops. Maybe running away was the right choice, he thinks, but is he really sure they can't fix this? Lloyd did bring him along. There has to be something still alive between them, right?
But he can't go back, can he? No, he made his choice. This is what he deserves. Although... Is Lloyd worried? No, why would he be? He shouldn't be. Zelos is a wanted man. That's another thing, isn't it? Maybe what he's doing right now is jeopardizing Lloyd's freedom again by being a free target out here in the rain. Someone is bound to spot him, right? And then what?
Paralyzed by his own thoughts, Zelos whines and paces back and forth, hands finding his hair and pulling, sliding down his face. He should go back. He needs to go back. But... does he deserve that? After everything he just did and said, does he deserve to even apologize?
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It's dark, but even from here Zelos can still see that there's a forest in the distance, some blob of darkness further away after the small plain at his feet. He breathes harshly and shallowly, frozen in place. Blinks, croaks something out, steps back. Starts trembling, eyes glued to the murky foliage through the thick rain.
'Just what do you think you're trying to achieve?'
The pouring rain envelops him whole, harsh like white noise, drowning out the rest of the world in a numb emptiness as he stares. He steps back again, looks to his left, over his shoulder. Why did he even run? What the hell was the purpose of coming all the way here? For all he's scared of Lloyd abandoning him, he sure just did exactly that to the ex-knight. Stupid... Stupid, so stupid. He should go back and apologize before he makes everything worse.
This wasn't worth it.
He steps back again, then twits on his heel and takes about six steps back to their inn before he abruptly stops. No, wait--he can't go back. Lloyd hates him, doesn't he? Why would he accept an apology from someone he despises? In that case, running away was the right choice. Yes. Growling under his breath, Zelos twists on his heel again, takes three steps towards the forest, and as lightning hits in the distance once again he suddenly stops. Maybe running away was the right choice, he thinks, but is he really sure they can't fix this? Lloyd did bring him along. There has to be something still alive between them, right?
But he can't go back, can he? No, he made his choice. This is what he deserves. Although... Is Lloyd worried? No, why would he be? He shouldn't be. Zelos is a wanted man. That's another thing, isn't it? Maybe what he's doing right now is jeopardizing Lloyd's freedom again by being a free target out here in the rain. Someone is bound to spot him, right? And then what?
Paralyzed by his own thoughts, Zelos whines and paces back and forth, hands finding his hair and pulling, sliding down his face. He should go back. He needs to go back. But... does he deserve that? After everything he just did and said, does he deserve to even apologize?