God, Lloyd, don't put him on the spot like that. Zelos scowls at his reflection in the window, the storm behind the glass freezing him the longer he stands here, but still he will not move. Well, shit. Lloyd's already picked up on something being wrong, but chances are he hasn't really dug into what it is. How could he, anyway? Zelos hasn't said anything. He's been as cooperative as a prisoner who refuses to speak when asked.
Maybe... maybe it's about time he fixes that, then.
"Some of the first few things they tell you to watch out for when you take up lordship," Zelos begins, still looking out the window, "is how the rest of your resources and people are doing at all times. You're supposed to watch out for everything that could go wrong, what is wrong, and how your actions will affect it. Leadership and resource management become second nature for you; and when learning exercises become several lives in your hands, it becomes a responsibility."
This is stupid, but he kind of hopes what he's trying to say will come across without really saying it out loud. What the hell is he supposed to say? Where does he start? How does one even bring up 'I feel like I left all these lands to die, like my purpose in life has been thrown away, and I have no idea what to do with myself now that the one thing I learned to be isn't what I have to be now' anyway?
Honesty was never really his forte, was it?
Another sigh, this one softer than the last. "I suppose old habits die hard," is the half-truth that Zelos says instead of anything else.
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Maybe... maybe it's about time he fixes that, then.
"Some of the first few things they tell you to watch out for when you take up lordship," Zelos begins, still looking out the window, "is how the rest of your resources and people are doing at all times. You're supposed to watch out for everything that could go wrong, what is wrong, and how your actions will affect it. Leadership and resource management become second nature for you; and when learning exercises become several lives in your hands, it becomes a responsibility."
This is stupid, but he kind of hopes what he's trying to say will come across without really saying it out loud. What the hell is he supposed to say? Where does he start? How does one even bring up 'I feel like I left all these lands to die, like my purpose in life has been thrown away, and I have no idea what to do with myself now that the one thing I learned to be isn't what I have to be now' anyway?
Honesty was never really his forte, was it?
Another sigh, this one softer than the last. "I suppose old habits die hard," is the half-truth that Zelos says instead of anything else.